Still here…..

Okay, Yes I am still here, yes I am still going to blog, although I have considered stopping, but I decided to press forward. You know life is so funny, and unpredictable. Somehow there was a “Demon” let loose in my house and my family. I’m not sure how exactly it got here or why it choose us, but it did. This demon thought that it could break us, and tear my family down and for a while we were down, but never out. this past  year has brought sorrow, sadness, shock, a lot of why’s. But along the way God has continued to bless us and we have been surprised, filled with joy, love and laughter. So while this Demon thought that it was going to destroy my family, it in turn did the exact opposite. We are STRONGER, WISER, and SO MUCH BETTER! God never left our side, he made us learn how to hold on to one another and taught me how to lean on others for support. It took me some time to figure all this out. Every time this Demon would strike, I would say why me Lord….. I would ask why….. I would say when is this going to end…… Then  I realized I’m alive, I’m breathing, I’m blessed. I realized I am not the first to be attacked nor will I be the last. I realized that at the end of this road, is blessing not even I can imagine. More importantly I realized I am a warrior. I believe that sometimes God gives us trial and tribulations to show us our own strength, to show us the truth of who we are. It may seem as though he as left us or abandon us but like a parent he is quietly and patiently watching nearby. Just like we watch our kids learn to walk they fall, they get hurt, they cry, but eventually they learn to walk. And even though we didn’t run to their rescue every time they fell they still learned how to walk. I am wobbly but I am learning how to walk! So when I  feel as though God has left me, I think maybe he is waiting on you to make a move. He can’t force you walk, he can only be there for me and show me how to walk, it is up to me to take those first few baby steps. So with that here are a few scripture that I am learning to meditate on, during this battle. I know……  I never recite scripture!! :0 But that doesn’t mean I don’t read or believe!! 🙂

But you, Lord, are a shield for me, My glory and the one who lifts up my head. I cried to the Lord with my voice, and he heard me from his holy hill. I lay down and slept when I woke up the Lord had sustained me!  I will NOT be afraid of ten thousands of people  who have set out against me! Psalms 3

He give power to the weak, and to those who have no might he increases strength Isaiah 40:29

It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect. He makes my feel like the feet of a deer (which is why I love deer) he enables me to stand on the heights. He trains my hands for battle! Psalms 18: 32-34

Be strong and Bold, have no fear or dread of them. Because it is the Lord your God who goes before you. He will be with you, he will not fail you or forsake you. Deuteronomy 31

Can you by worrying add a single hour to your span of life? If you are not able to do this small thing why do you worry about the rest? Luke 12: 25-26

And my favorite!!!
Do NOT worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Today is trouble enough for today!! Matthew 6 ( I am still learning and working on this one everyday)


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